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[Excited Day]
Yesterday 20110120 is an unforgettable day for JM...
Congratulations on new single album NOT ALONE released and Comeback stage...
Of course I've done my best to support him...
Yesterday whole day listening to NOT ALONE lo...
Really so LOVE YA the song...
Totally get addicted by the song!!!
JINJA DAEBAK!!!
Wish our CEO PARK get great sales and all the best and have a big success for this!!!
Thanks for giving me strength...
I'm NOT ALONE!!! You're NOT ALONE!!!

And my dear bunny made me even excited by showing me my JJ's "She Says" album...
Finally it reached lol... But I need to wait until CNY!!!
Nvm tahan tahan!!!
Thanks BUNNY!!!

[Nervous Day + Happy Day]
Today is an important day for me, interview day!!!
Was so nervous, I think I have job phobia lo, lol...
Thanks dear Siti and 4D leader for waking me up this early morning...
But I got slept back for a while, heheheh^^
Thanks my girl's sweet message in the morning to give me support and strength for interview...
Thanks to JM again for your NOT ALONE...
I'm really NOT ALONE...
Full with love and support!!!
And I got the job!!! Yeahhhhh~~~~
The boss said let me decide when to start work...
I think most probably I'll start next Monday...
Although dun know whether I can do well or not for the job, I'll try my best for it...
HWAITING to myself!!!

After interview finished, I went to reward myself, lol...
Not yet start work and not even get my salaries, I already said rewarding myself!!! hahaha...
Actually wanna look for another book for someone, but couldn't find good one, so just bought one for myself, hahaha...
Here's what I've bought earlier, heheh^^


















Found this one, content quite nice and details one... happy happy!!! I think will be useful... Let's see whether it will be like what the book title says or not??? In one week, can I make it??? I think can provided I'm hardworking... I hope working won't delay my study on this lo... HWAITING again!!!

[Tired Day]
Yes, I'm so tired today... why???
Cuz of listening to JM's NOT ALONE until so late...
And again doing something lo...
Supposed to sleep earlier yesterday night for today's interview...
But I just couldn't let JM alone, lol...
Something new related to JM is coming soon, now in progress!!!
After that, will go get some rest...
Thinking later won't have the energy to go to aerobics class...
Should I skip class??? cuz of tiresome and also cuz of JM???
Wanna support him in front of TV later...
I think I'll just skip class, hahaha!!!

Okay, see ya soon!!!
Now Korean learning time starts!!!

是我？不是我？

最近，
脾气坏！！！
越来越不想别人管我的事情。。。
最好谁都不要插手我的私事。。。
麻烦不要烦我。。。
不要碎碎念！
不准闯入我的生活。。。

突然，
不想呆在家里，
想要扔下所有的包袱，
到外头去闯一闯。。。
靠自己的力量活下去。。。

也许这些都是气话。。。
也许是我不懂得珍惜。。。
也许是我不知足。。。
也许所有的错都在我。。。

总觉得自己越来越不懂事了。。。
好像现在的我又回到了当年的叛逆期。。。
是吗？
还是因为，
我厌倦了现在的生活。。。
我厌倦了自己的无所事事。。。
我好讨厌现在的自己！！！

为什么，
我会变成这样？
我想要回到最原始的我。。。
那个，
既纯真，又热爱生活的女生。。。
到哪里去了？
我想要把她找回来。。。
祝福我，为我祈祷。。。
我能够很快地找到答案。。。
不用担心，我会慢慢思考、慢慢相通！！！
到时，希望答案是我回来了~~~
我就是我！！！
我还是我！！！

空洞。。。

最近，
心里总是空荡荡的。
怎么搞的？
好多事想做，却心有余力不足。。。

我
是
怎
么
了
？

我讨厌现在的自己。。。
敲醒我吧！！！
用力敲。。。

Aerobic Class

记得我上回说的“练舞”吧？
其实是一、三、五的 Aerobic Class 咯！！！
跟珊一起去做做运动、出出汗，真好。。。
之后，云和珍也会加入我们哦！
之前是被大姑拉去的，渐渐地爱上了Aerobic。。。
因为它不单只是死板韵律舞，也有跳流行舞。。。
最重要的是，有我最爱的 Kpop。。。
像Nobody, Tell Me, 2 Different Tears, Change, 10 out of 10, I go crazy because of you, Oh! 。。。
可是，全部没学过！哈哈哈。。。
全都都是我不在这里的期间教的。。。
因为2 Different Tears 是在我加入的一个星期前教的，
所以为了赶上大家的脚步，我自己在家里从YT上学跳舞步。。。
是有那么一点不同之处，不过至少基本的动作还是一样的， 呵呵呵！
那天，老师跳了I go crazy because of you。。。
我超爱那首歌的咯。。。
之前看了T-ara 跳之后，就疯狂的爱上了这首歌。。。
也自学了副歌的部分。。。
所以那天向老师要求教我跳，嘻嘻！！！
下个星期就可以学咯，超兴奋的说。。。
其实我还有好多舞想要学，Nu ABO、Lupin、 Breathe、 YaYaYa 还有好多好多哦！
希望近期内，老师会教。。。
好咯，该练舞了！！！
Annyeong~~~

压力 = 推动力

最近，压力来了！
家人开始催我找工作咯！
自己也觉得是时候该找工了，因为不想在家里白吃白住！
但是，我有“惧工症”诶！！！
也许是我很难适应新环境吧。。。
无论如何，告诉自己要加油！

刚刚去庙拜拜。。。
顺道求了签。
愁眉思暂时开，启山云霄喜日来。。。
宛如粪土中藏玉， 良工一举出尘埃。。。
中签，还不错的说！！！
说见工OK!!! 还会有贵人相助哦。。。
还蛮准一下。。。
这下可以定下心来奋斗咯！
希望找到好工，加油咯，许小姐。。。

老实说，现在的我好想赚钱哦。
要买的东西有好多， 想要用自己赚来的钱来买。。。
衣服、包包，鞋子、给家人朋友的礼物。。。
啊， 对了，还有专辑咯。。。
本人对喜爱的歌手是绝对支持正版的哦， 嘻嘻^^
还有第一份薪水一定要请家人吃大餐！！！
有了这些推动力的加持，我一定会更努力的。。。
说到做到！
HWAITING!!!

好了，是时候开溜去练舞了。。。
练舞？？？ 对,没错！！！
我会在下一篇文章里详细解说哦！

Happy wedding!!!

Happy wedding to my gugu and gu zhang...
Wish u two as sweet as honey forever...
Enjoy your honey moon ya..

기분이 좋다 ^o^

今天完成了两项任务。。。
感觉真好，嘻嘻嘻^^
特别的日子即将到来。。。
我又要行动了！
又是时候验收成果了！
首先，要让我的“经理人”和“编辑”过目。。。
希望不会让他们失望咯， 呵呵！！！

Ridiculous!!!

Asking people for birthday present is not that good already...
But since it's your birthday soon, I'm thinking if I have the time, then might be able to hand-make something for u...
But later, requested for what to give as present...
I was like I really couldn't afford to buy that and somehow it's rude to ask people to buy one thing for your birthday...
Later, even asked if I can buy another something online...
That time, I felt so weird!!!
I felt like I need to tell u that your way of asking presents from people is really not good...
I tried my best to tell u nicely so that I won't hurt you...
But what I get from you???
"I'm just joking with you, didn't know that u'll take it so seriously"
"After all we aren't that close, I already expected it"
I really felt so ridiculous when u said that to me!!!
So, what for u asked me for present just now...
I really thought that u want it from me...
The way u said told me that u really want it...

People might take things seriously...
The thing u so-called joking around wasn't seem like a joke for me...
I treasure every friend of mine, that's why I take into considerations the thing they say...
I really love to make and give TS something for their birthday...
Even though it might not be an expensive present, I make it with my heart...
Just wanna make them and myself happy...
I give presents to people because they're the one I treasure...
But you made that jokes which hurt the thing I treasure and appreciate so much inside my heart...

Really felt so sad just now...
I've never been treated like this before...
And later u're like just simply apologising to me...
I couldn't feel ur sincerity...
Maybe u think that ur joke is nothing...
Try to ask presents from others, try to joke this with others too...
They will feel the same as me...

I dun know what's your intention...
I hope u're just really joking around...
If you get close to people because u wanna get benefits out of them...
Then, u're not true friend...
You won't get respect from me...

My energy??? Where???

Totally no mood today...
Dun know what to do...
And not feel like doing anything...
Totally out of energy!!!

Just listening to JJ's songs...
Then watching SS501's Live at Budokan DVD...
Only them can give me some energy!!!
Thanks to U-Kiss members too...
SooHyun, Kibum and Kevin...
Fighting over Piro Piro, so funny!!!

Time to go!!!
I'm going to get all my energy back!!!
Bye and see ya...

Can I smack you, my dear laptop!!!!!

Almost finished doing my things...
Suddenly laptop jammed!!!
OMG!!!!!!!
Wanna smacked my laptop just now...
My hard work all gone!!!
ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
Now can only go to bed...
Have a nice sleep and start doing it again tomorrow...
GOOD NIGHT!!! *Staring at my laptop*

I'm back!!!

From UK, I'm back to my home sweet home...
So great to be at home...
Now busy doing missions here...
Need to complete and make it as perfect as possible...
Hope within time limit...
Trying my best...
See ya in the next article...

Last paper screwed!!! MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Yeahhhh guess what...
I've finished my last paper...
Really SUPER DUPER HAPPY~~~~~
Been studying and working so hard for the exam this time...

After exam, went to shopping...
Din buy clothes but bought Travel Adaptors for Euro trip...
Tomorrow need to go and look for my sport shoes and maybe new clothes???
My old sport shoes already buka mulut, wahahaha...
Gummed for twice already, now buka lagi...
I have so many things wanna buy, later need to list down, if not will forget lo, haha^^
Too much brain memories accommodated for exam points, now no more space for other things...
Old already!!! Symptoms of ageing, I guess, hahaha...
But one thing, cannot buy too much or too expensive, need to control and save some money...

I just woke up from one hour sleep not long ago...
Shopping time earlier totally din feel tired...
But as soon as reached home, my shoulders and back started to feel painful...
And headache and blur blur some more...
But only went to sleep after finished chatting with friends and clearing my FB homework...
Now still feel painful...
My prove for working hard for my exam huh, LOL ~~~~~

Ermmm, what more to say???
Ahhhhh yeah, earlier after exam, I did called back home...
Telling my beloved ah ma that I've done with my exam and hope can do well lo...
Cuz I really studied so hard for this time...
Hope the results are satisfactory...
Hearing her voice on phone made me really miss her, my family and my home sweet home...
And also my friends in Malaysia...
Will be flying back on 14 October and reached KL on 15 October...
Guess by then, will be busy again outing with KL friends...
My sing k session, my food, my shopping are all waiting for me there...
Can't wait for the time to come...

But for now...
Starting from tomorrow onwards, let me enjoy with my Europe Trip 1st...
Let me fully explore the beautiful places and people here 1st...
Let me take as many nice photos as possible 1st...
Let me keep great and precious memories at here 1st...
Then let me say bye bye to UK and back to my lovely country...
By then, will start to miss everything here so badly for sure...

Later need to go celebrate and party at friends' flat...
Must fully enjoy our last night at Sheffield...
Tomorrow night will be leaving here with our luggage...
My luggage already 90% packed, so the remainder to be done tomorrow...
Tonight might back home late, crazy with friends, cuz last night at Sheffield ma, hahaha...

Ok la, need to stop here 1st...
Go do my laundry in a while...
Then go to party...
Oh yeah, one more thing before I go...
During euro trip, I will not update my blog here cuz most of the time traveling...
Will be very tired after whole day traveling, so won't drop off here...
I need to give my blog holiday too, hahaha!!!
Dun miss me ya, hehe^^
See u all again soon...
Good day to all...
Annyeong ~~~~~

One more to go!!!!!

Screwed CR paper today...
My hands were seriously tired after exam ended...
Really so many to write in 3 hours time...
But luckily I finished all part...
Although not sure whether I'm doing well or not this time...
I'm really happy that I din give up the subject cuz I really dun like it since last time and dun have confidence in it...
Really happy that for Section B, what I've studied came out...
Just that dun know my points and ideas are okay or not...
But I really smiled when finished the exam...
Still dun have much confidence for it...
At lease I've tried my very best...
Hope result is PASSED...
Passed is enough for me, really!!!
For this CR subject, I'm not greedy... hehe^^

Now need to focus on another one here after posting up this entry...
Exam day will be on this Thursday...
Need to study again...
HWAITING again to myself !!!!!
This time I'm gonna do my very best again...
Not to disappoint my family and friends who love me and always giving me lots of supports...
I really love you guys so so much...
Thanks for ur all encourage words, pushing me to work harder...
I really do appreciate to have u all by my side...
THANKS A LOT!!!!!
Now back to study mode...
And see you all soon !!!!!

Study !!!

Finally I can focus back on my study...
Revising and memorising for exam is not that fun at all...
HWAITING again to myself...
I can only do my best for now...
After all these exams, my holiday is waiting for me...
So I must work hard now so that I can fully enjoy later...
Now turning myself into FIGHTER!!!!
Gonna screw down the exam next week...
I CAN DO IT !!!!!

Distraction!!!

Today I keep on posting new entries here, hehe^^
This is already the third post!!!!!
Cuz too much distraction...
Wanna focus on my study, but seems like I couldn't for today...
Maybe need to wait until a bit later...
After I finished doing everything that distracts me now...
Ahhhhh I really need to focus later...
I MUST!!!!!
HWAITING to myself!!!!!

Shining friends!!!

My heart feels painful and sad when I feel she is sad too...
Feel like she has something we never know...
Maybe she dun wanna tell...
Or maybe she dun wanna trouble or worry us...
This is just what I feel...
I hope it's wrong...
But no matter what, I'll always be there for her...
Even sometimes this is quite hard cuz we're not staying together...
But at least I hope can give her energy and encouragement when she really needs it...
Cuz I treat her as my true friend...
And that's what a true friend should and can do for her...
I hope she's fine and doing good always...
The sun will rise and shine...
And I hope she will smile and happy always too...
And we will grow old together while smiling...
Let's HWAITING together!!!!!

This song is for her...
One of my all-time favourite song...


Credit: xFunkyPandaz

Hi

Hi my dear blog, hahahaha^^
It's been quite some time for me to appear here again.
Sorry I'm afraid that I'm not able to update u all on my following stories at UK here...
Now I'm so busy with assignments...
Exams coming soon in September too...
Need to study real hard...
Hope I can continue writing all again when I'm real free, but until then, I'll have lots to write lo.
Maybe will just be a really short one for each trip.
It's okay right??? hahaha....

BTW, was happy that they will be bringing Hyung Jun over Malaysia for fanmeeting...
But I'm not there... Why 29 August???
Okay, I told myself it's okay cuz I've already met him last time and even talked to him for so long, shake hands with him, got his sign as well with my name on it... I'm satisfied already, ehehehe^^*My BabyS will pull her hair again when seeing this, aigooo dun do it dear, kakakaka*
Maybe next time we'll meet again...
Maybe next time the 5 of them will be coming together again... I really hope so...
So for now, my friends will enjoy with me 1st...
Dun forget, my soul will be there with u all, hahahah... as usual!!!

Ah yeah, My BabyS, if u happened to see this... I need to celebrate the 96 at your baby twitter and our 69 posts at the site, hehehe^^ Wish our effect continue until FOREVER!!!

I have to stop now...
See ya again...
Annyeong~~~

Shocking News!!!

Yes, I was totally shocked by the news...
Why such incidents kept happening in Korea entertainment industry?

Park Yong Ha, Rest In Peace!!!

You're rude and annoying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tiring day for me...
And was so pissed off and not in good mood because of a request from my friend...
I wonder what's the meaning of presentation to you...
Isn't it that we need to practise and do our very best?
How can u ask me to speak out my English like I'm poor at it?
How can u say to me that if I talk too good in English, it would affect the whole group performance cuz it would show to the listeners that other group members are poor at English?
Why it would affect the performance?
For me, Yes, I think that presenting in a good English is a good thing...
But I also strongly feel that to have a good content in your presentation is a lot more important than having a good English talking skill or British slang in it...
And how am I able to change my English slang?
I have been talking this kind of slang for years...
Now u wanna me to change it and act like I'm not good with it...
I CAN'T!!!
How can u say these words to me?
"Wow so arrogant... participating in public speaking before, so arrogant..."
Yes I did public speaking before, so what?
I just said I couldn't change my slang and I really can't do it...
It's a presentation, why I need to do it to make the overall performance drop?
And can speak a good British-slang English doesn't mean that I'm good at English...
How can you say out all those words to hurt me?
I was totally pissed off just now...
You're such an annoying and rude person!!!
If you continue to do this, you'll receive no respect but will only get dislike and hate from people...

Complex feeling...

Today was so happy celebrating birthday for JJ and Ting at Sheffield here...
It was so fun eating, playing, having fun together...
Taking lots of nice, cute and funny photos as well...
Totally in good mood...
Then going for discussion, it went on well...
Came back eating food and drinks again...
Today I ate so much... heheheh^^
Getting fatter soon, I guess...

Then saw and read something, made me worried again...
But force myself not to think much...
Like what I've said, I'll support them no matter what...
My heart for them won't change...
But it hurts me again...
Guess he hurts more if that's really him...
What's his feeling under that condition...
Should be very complex, heavy and sad...
Hope he's getting better...
I dun wanna see him sad and crying...
Crying face doesn't suit a sweet guy like him...
Hope to inject energy to him...
Back to my Energy Man!!!
Take care ya... HWAITING!!!